Big girl...

Ok... i'm going to get my big girl panties on and deal with it. No more calling. No more texting. No more emailing him. Nothing. If he wants to talk to me, he can call me. I'm not going to be some little toy that he could take out when ever he wants. I'm sick of it. He loves me and is scared of commitment, well, his f'in loss. I'm tired of making myself available for him all the time and i'm getting nothing in return. Sure the friendship and the uh... hmmm is good, but I have feelings too. Can you tell i'm trying to be strong? Well, i'm trying and that's a start for me. I just need the strength to not call him when i'm sad or lonely. I don't want to think about him when the night is cold. I BELIEVE. I BELIEVE IN MY STRENGTH. I BELIEVE IN LOVE. I BELIEVE IN M. I BELIEVE IN LOVE. I BELIEVE IN LOVE.