Confessions of a Less-Than Perfect Mom

The major players on a recent getaway to Florida. Notice Nora's sass. Hi, everyone! I'm Erin Zammett Ruddy, the newest addition to the Yahoo! Shine parenting crew. I've been blogging for nearly eight years (for Glamour, for Parenting for myself) but this is my first day at Yahoo! and I am so excited...and a little nervous. Many of you have been following me since my Glamour days and I can't thank you enough for your interest and loyalty. Some of you are probably reading me for the first time today and I'm equally grateful-and hope you'll stick around! Here's what you need to know about me: I'm a freelance writer, a former magazine editor (I was at Glamour for eight years before trading in my Conde Nast-appropriate clothes for the yoga-pants/old tee shirt look I currently rock while working from home), a wife, a mother, and a cancer patient/survivor. I was diagnosed with chronic myelogenous leukemia when I was 23 and have been in remission for over a decade but I'm technically still a patient because I take a drug every day that keeps my leukemia at bay. BUT: I'm currently off that medication because I'm pregnant with my third child (d'oh!) and I can't be on the meds while pregnant. It sounds confusing and scary but it's really not that bad, I swear. You can read all about it here.

I live on the north shore of Long Island with my husband and two children-Alex, who's nearly six and super active but also super sweet and Nora, who's three and a half and, well, not so sweet lately. After bedtime books the other night, I kissed her and said, "I love you" to which she replied: "I hate you." (I explained why she shouldn't say that and she took it back but still…the girl knows how to cut me deep.) I love my kids and being a mom but I also put a lot of energy into my marriage and friendships and my life outside of butt-wiping and piggy-back rides. I am food obsessed (I'll definitely be posting pics and recipes from my vegetable garden), I am an unashamed TV watcher (the three shows I'm missing most right now: Scandal, Homeland andDownton Abbey) and, when I'm not pregnant, I enjoy the hell out of a glass of wine at the end of a long (or short) day.

As far as my parenting beliefs, I can say this: I am continuously shocked that I'm not the perfect mother I always envisioned I'd be. I used to witness other moms in the grocery story with tantrum-throwing kids or the ones with lollipops coming out of their ears and think "that will never be me" but, well, sometimes it is. I never thought I'd yell or send my daughter to school with unbrushed hair (and mismatched socks) but, as a full-blown M.O.M. now, I do these things and I've come to terms with them because my kids are happy and healthy, I'm happy and healthy and life is way too short to strive for perfection in any arena, particularly one with as many minefields as parenting.

When my kids play well together, my heart feels like it will expand right out of my chest. I feel so blessed and happy and think, I have such good kids I must be doing something right. When they fight to the death over, say, who gets to have the shark plate at dinner, my blood boils and I feel like I'm living with the devil spawn and I think, I suck at this and can't believe we're having a third. I have several of these highs and lows a day, which, to me, sort of defines motherhood. The rollercoaster of "this is amazing!"…oh wait..."no, this is torture!" that keeps us on our toes. I will be writing about all of this and much, much more. I tend to overshare, so be prepared for that, and while I do believe I excel at this mom gig from time to time, I will mostly be focusing on my sub-par parenting moments because A: they're more fun to write about. B: I have a constant supply to pull from and C: I never want this blog to make anyone feel like they're not measuring up as a mom (that's what pinterest is for).

I'll be posting here regularly-at least two times a week-and you can also find me over at erinzammettruddy.com. I love my readers and hope we can start a real dialogue about some of the issues we face as parents today. I prefer positive feedback (who doesn't?) but I can take all kinds! Welcome again, thanks for reading and I'll be back with more soon! -Erin